Monday, October 02, 2006

I'm Back Like cooked cookies Homie.....

The Single Life

So this was basically my first weekend single in about 2 years. I didn't go out and do anything on a whim or act a complete donkey, but I had a good time. I went down south to Tijuana and if you have never been, its just ruckus and chaos over there. Bitches and Hoes everywhere (that is not a fabrication, Hoes and Bitches in every literal way) 10$ head jobs, massages with happy endings, In these I did not partake however, as of right now I am no where near desperate. Also, since its so soon after my breakup I in no way want to be portrayed as such (desperate, cheat and jerk to name a few). The reason I bring this up, cuz I am pretty sure most MoFo's could give a rat's ass what I did this weekend was because of all the conflicting advice I have received since My Girl and I broke up. Here is some of the advice I received in no particular order and just the ones that stick out in my mind (no pharrell)

"Hey Fuck your ex and her feelings, go crazy and stick your dick in anything that walks".. Hmmm I thought this one over and realized probably ok if I was 22 or something but I am grown and know I love my ex and this in no way will help us reconcile ....

"Aram, you are a damn liar, so you better do everything in your power to fix the situation and ask for forgiveness, a million times over" This is probably the one I'm going to do, but it takes a lot of balls to ask over and over, knowing possibly that its not enough ....


"Hey you need some mental help and so does she, why the fuck does a girl feel the need to search all your shit, she is always going to find something. I learned in my Human Sexuality class that a girl that searches your shit all the time. Absolutely always finds something she isn't going to like....." This dude carried on for about an hour, going on about how trust issues start from the home and that if your mate cant trust her immediate family she isn't going to trust her boyfriend or whatever. This particular conversation I had; made me think really hard if I actually want to fix things. The reason being can my ex ever get over things in order for us to move on in the future and I have a feeling she will not. I have issues of my own to fix, which I try to work on regularly and I know I will never be perfect but I damn sure try.....




I am going to have to come to a decision on whether or not I want to continue to pursue this relationship with my ex again. As of right now, I want to work it out but I do realize the longer I stay single its more than likely that I am going to probably want to stay like this for awhile. Peace

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

love is more than a word or a phase its an action........words are cheap if u love her than prove it, i hope she finds it in her heart to understand your just a man and will make mistakes but at the end of the day its always her......and if she cant forgive and forget than your love was never thier anyway......now go get her we are all cheering for u ;-)

Anonymous said...

I ain't fuckin' cheering for him, so keep the "we" out of it. Get a grip you whiny little ass-clown. Your blog used to be funny, and now it's like Bol's most of the time. It's a piece of ass for chrissakes. Be glad you got to smell it, taste it, and hit it, but now go find something better.

I Fux said...

^ I am back on my grind, I got my swagger back

Anonymous said...

Yo keep that sentimental shit out ur blogg. It used to be funny when u said real shit now you writing shit your ex wants to hear fuck her find a new gurl that does not check your phone and get on wit it

I Fux said...

thanks for the love

Belize said...

I got lost 1/2 way...must be the liquor...but ...yeah..tijuana is dope...in 99'!!

Anonymous said...

Yeah, eventually you get to that age where the pursuit of random ass becomes one of diminishing returns. Just be honest about it all and you'll be ok. Keep your head up, Pimp. --Rey from xxl.